lookback: february 2025
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Jeez, before I even realized it, the month of February has already come and went!
Kept super busy this month with daily life, so not a lot of time to dedicate to the website currently. I’ve also been dealing with a few mental health issues in therapy that’s taken a lot of my mental bandwidth as well. Hopefully I’ll be able to bounce back in March!
Completed
Games
- He Fucked the Girl Out of Me (2023) - PLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS IN THE GAME DESCRIPTION BEFORE PLAYING! Although this game broaches on a very specific path of trauma for the game creator, it was very uncomfortably familiar for me. It was a heavy and somber game, and frankly I think it’s important for stories like this to continue to be highlighted.
Misc
- Painted (with much help from my housemate, bless them) my new room pink! I also finally mounted all of my wall furniture so my room is basically complete. Looking forward to decorating it more :)
- Taxes. Love to be financially decimated every year!! /s
Server
Finally got to work on spinning my media server up and, this time, fully automating it! Although it’s no longer super reliable since my UPS has kicked the bucket, I’ve decided that I’ll just have to risk it potentially getting killed off by a brownout. It’s been nice to not have to be on-call for requests anymore though.
Started
Books
- Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents: how to heal from Distant, Rejecting, or Self-Involved Parents (2015) - Decided to try learning a bit more about this topic on parenthood and recontextualizing my childhood within that framework. Thanks to the friend that lent me this to read, it’s been really interesting so far!
Ramadan
I decided to join my household in fasting for Ramadan this year. This will be my first time observing Ramadan, and I am a non-Muslim, but I thought it pertinent to do this for a few reasons. I thought it would be a good way to redefine my particular relationship and past with spirituality and religion, as I have a lot of baggage around this particular topic. I also hope to use this month to work on realigning my body and my spirit, as I have had some troubling energy keeping me from being fully present in the world. I also especially decided to do so in solidarity with Muslims and moreso with Palestinians, who suffer starvation and death at the hands of Israel this month.
In Progress
Education
This month has been an absolute whirlwind of constantly making sure I don’t fall behind in all of my classes. It’s been a lot of fun but still a little hectic juggling school and all of my other obligations. Learning music has been something I’ve always wanted to do, and it’s been really satisfying expanding my knowledge of music theory and piano!
On Hold
Games
All of them! I am attempting to spiritually fast from distractions like media and games during Ramadan. Will have to hop back on in April!